The last couple of days have been hard on my body. Since I went as a spur of the moment thing, I did not train like last time, and my body has been punishing me ever since. Like DOMS the second day after training is always the hardest, so Friday was complete torture. An excercise in self-diciplin to keep walking…especially the last 9km. But with a determined mind and singing Tim McGraw’s “Humble and Kind” I finished in Boadilla del Camino in Albergue en El Camino, which I can highly recommend.
Maria Grazia and I walked together yesterday. She was patient with me and my sore feet, and she even cooked us pasta last night. Let me make it clear – The Camino provides.
During our walk we talked extensively about work culture, expectations and as I call it the hamster wheel. So many people get caught up in the hamster wheel, because breaking away seems difficult and scary. Too many people I know or have met randomly tell me that they hold jobs they basically do not enjoy, but their problem is that they don’t know what they want to do instead, so they just stay. I fully understand them, but isn’t it concerning that many people are unhappy with their job, and think they should be doing something else?
I listend to myself and choose to leave DARE2, because I no longer feel happy servicing others…I’m not sure I have more to give after spending the better part of my career working in customer service, admin or as PA. I know I’m good at it, but it does not make me happy, so what is the point? I like so many others do not have a clear picture of what I want to do instead, but I’m also questioning if the big city is the right place for me? I love having nature right outside my doorstep, I prefer to eat organic, sustainable food and I continually attempt to minimize my possesions. Somewhere along that route of thought lies the solution for my future. I do not yet know where it will take me and what I will do, but I do know that I will not get back on the hamster wheel.